It's been almost two weeks! Ugghh, teaching is such a busy job. I just don't know. I really want out. If I didn't work, our lifestyle would have to change drastically, though. Like, no cable or Internet and possibly only one car. But maybe I could get a job that didn't involve so much take-home? I just feel like nothing is ever done and I never get anywhere. I'm always doing things at the last possible minute because there is no other time. And I know that staying home wouldn't solve everything, because stay at home moms have plenty to keep them busy, but... I just think I would be a lot happier.

The last two weeks have been times of change. Libby is done breastfeeding and is taking a bottle. She's eating at least two solid "meals" a day, and has tried many different fruits and vegetables. We never swaddle her for sleep anymore, which was a somewhat rough transition until about 2 weeks ago, and now she's doing really well. And on Friday night, we said "goodbye" to the evening nap in favor of an earlier bedtime.

Libby is starting to look like an older baby. She is six months old. All of these changes are bittersweet. She is such a good girl, and so happy, and every new thing is so fun and exciting. But thinking about how much she's changed and will continue to change makes me wish she'd slow down a little bit. I try to keep Future Me in mind and be in the moment with her now, because I know I'm going to wish I could return to these moments someday.

She did really well at her six-month appointment last week. When they gave her the shots, she got a big pouty look on her face and didn't cry for several seconds, just looked at the nurses saying, "Why?" She calmed pretty quickly, though, and actually almost fell asleep in my arms while I was comforting her. Then she fell asleep on the ride home.

I have to go grade some papers or plan some lessons or something. Ugh.

Maternity Leave

Today is my last day home alone with Libby. Tomorrow Todd will be off of work, and then we have the weekend. So far, the day is going well. Libby went down easily for her morning nap. Hopefully, she'll sleep at least an hour so she can make it till 1:00 or close to it for her next nap.

If I am lucky enough to get to have another baby someday, I hope I can take at least 3-4 months for maternity leave. I really felt like it took 3 months for Libby and I to bond well and get nursing down, and this last month has really solidified our relationship. Of course, my real dream is by the time I have another baby that I'll be able to stay home at least part time with my kiddos.

Libby had her four-month shots yesterday. It went pretty well, except that there were FOUR of them, poor baby. She held her breath so long afterwards that the nurse blew in her face to surprise her into breathing. It worked. I'll have to remember that next time, because if I remember correctly, all I did was look at Libby sadly and say "Uh oh, uh oh" or something equally as un-helpful. I think it's because I was gearing up for the Mother of All Cries rather than that I was concerned that she wasn't breathing. She got over it quickly and was asleep by the time we left the office. (Note: it might be a good idea to make Dr. appointments so they conveniently end around naptime).